I HAVE BEEN IN DENIAL
I have tried to ignore the fact my stalker is once again waking out of Jail. I was horrified to find out he was getting out early on Wednesday 31st August 20/22 the time he is locked up it peaceful as he has no access to computer or phone as he is a category one sex offender he cannot get access to social media devices.
He will indeed be on probation but that makes no difference to me as if he wanted to contact me he would do so my slight worry is the day after he gets out is September 1st. Many years ago when he first produced a gun and helped me at gunpoint for nine hours that was on the 1st of September he thinks of that as an anniversary and made quite serious threats in court regarding that date and dates and after that date so the concern is always there with me for a week or two after that date as to what’s going to happen next.
I have chosen to forgive him for all the hurt he caused me and for making me disabled if I did not forgive him I could not move on with my life.
Forgiving is not forgetting I cannot ever forget as I have to be aware of my surroundings when he is out of jail yes I’m scared that he’s going to hurt me again. I have to trust in prayer and in God that things will be alright and he will get the help he needs and that he will not hurt me again. Until this week I was not sure about prayer until something astonishing happened this week I had an injury I still do you have an Injury but it is so much better thanks to people for praying for me at my church I can’t be more thankful that they took the time to do that for me and I can’t be more thankful to God that worked I was always Someone who needed proof I have it now I will never disbelieve again.
I’m very thankful for the people in my church who are my friends and for the pastor who leads this wonderful church. I’m not going to name the Church on here as I have a responsibility to ensure the safety of others. I take that responsibility seriously I would like to tell my Church but I would scare them with this and that’s not what I want so I will deal with this on my own and hopefully the gods help. I will link organisations below Who anybody continue to help and advice from. The first link under here will also take you to a page if you’re an international resident or visitor that needs help so that would be the first link I will say one thing please contact your local police department if you have any concerns of somebody following you or if you’re told feel unhappy about the situation you’re in.
https://www.actionagainststalking.org/
https://www.gov.uk/report-stalker
https://www.scotland.police.uk/advice-and-information/domestic-abuse/
